Time is running out!

2009-06-26T01:25:00.002+08:00

"We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us."

This is the truth of life, it's strange but true. Once you realise this, its never too late to change.

this is from one of my friends blog.
it kinda made me think of the past.
so thought i'd just share it here.

BYE PEEPS!

2009-05-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

something is very wrong with me.
never felt so de-motivated, uninspired, and whatever you wanna call it.
ive almost lost all or any purpose of being in school.
ohwell there's just so much inside that im never gonna talk about.

recently my buddies, they are all facing some kinda problems one way or another.
i dont know what exactly are they thinking but im always praying for all of us to have the ability to face whatever comes and being able to move on in life.
i always tell myself no matter how tough its gonna be that i will try not to take it too hard on myself.
im trying....

boring...mundane....school...work...
where am i being led to?
god knows!

STAY STRONG PEOPLE.

2009-04-06T15:55:00.004+08:00

The room that im in now is so cold and im feeling so sick.
i wanna go home but i can't.

everything's pretty mundane.
feel like i really need to rest.
i bet the worst is yet to come.

My phone is OUT OF ORDER for the past week or so.
Hopefully i can get it done by this week.

and i know i owe fangying an apology.
if you are reading im really sorry babe.
we shall meet up next week before school starts kay?

im praying hard some of my contacts are not gone.
STUPID SIMCARD.

its damn COLD in here man. DAMN!

2009-03-05T14:53:00.004+08:00

ITP = BOOOOOOOOOORIIIIIIIIING :(

im doing R&D
and mostly working in the clean room.
CLEAN ROOM = RABBIT SUIT :((
oh wells.

rachel is in haerbin, jennifer is in shanghai and so is naomi.
if u're reading, take care girls! and enjoy the experience.
im stuck in school for ITP :((

right now im 'researching' - ROTTING.
may sound slack but NO.
got things to complete, DATELINES.....
DAMN!

signing off,
very sad and bored LYNA.

2009-01-23T03:41:00.006+08:00

YELLOWWW!!! (just incase you didnt know im saying HELLOO!)

anyway my first post for 2009.
YOU can laugh at me if you want for saying this only now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
anyway CNY nearing also.
ahaha!
go collect red packets you lucky asses!
LOL.

EXAMS EXAMS AND EXAMS ..
what a turn off.
damn! :/
from now till after FYP good luck to me and my mates.

oh yeah speaking of whats next!
ITP.
crapshit.
lucky ass rachel aka sotong going for OITP sia.
its good i think seven weeks without the sotong aura.
hahahahahaha!
just kidding if u're reading.
i'll miss ya babe :(
take care of yourself.
note: don't let the sotong dominate you.
hahahaha! :P

ehh what else?...
oh yeah today SUPPOSE to meet FANGYING.
but both of us forgot.
i was caught up with reports and assignments and presentation crap.
oh well..

i miss alot of people and i have been feeling like CRAP ever since i dont know when.
listening to some songs brings me back to good old times.
RANDOM-NESS i know.
alright gotta ciao now.

red flares from the ships during new year at east coast!

lightstick galore. LOL!

SHUYING actually bought my crap
when i told her i found someone online
that looks like me.

This is what i do during weekends.

and FINALLY...

take care peeps! :)
and incase i dont blog before exams.....

GOODLUCK YO! :D
CIAO!

2008-12-29T23:43:00.003+08:00

Holiday = Super busy and tiring
Haven't touch any of my school work = DEAD MEAT!
School has begun and things aren't getting any better....

DAMN!

2008-11-20T22:44:00.004+08:00

Firstly Happy Belated Bird-day to my one and only NUTCASE! :)
gave her a surrrrprise...how i wish i could post some of her retarded photos but she wouldnt let me do that....haha! SEE im so nice.
i'll post next time maybe HAHAHAHA!

okay so this week.
fell terribly sick.
the doctor shocked me when he said " alright i'll give you three days MC "
but i still went for lessons, only stayed home for one day.
such a nice student.....PUI! (immitating engchua!) HAHAHA!

ehhh......... OHOHOH going for Interaction camp this weekend.
the purpose of this camp from my POV is not really to interact but to scare ourselves. hahaha!
cos we're going to visit three different places for nightwalk.
Chua chu kang christian cemetary, OCH and lastly fortcanning park.
gonna be fun i guess! :)

and im gonna stayover at rachel's place tmr night and we'll head for camp tgt sat afternoon.
WOOOOOOOTS!
liming must be damn jealous.
OOOOOOPS! LOL.
anyway cute couple friends i have...haha!
note to liming: your time will come real soon :) HAHAHA!

moving on...
nothing much actually!
so i guess i'll take off from here.
BYE PEEPS :D

Its really not easy sometimes.
i wish i could.....

2008-11-04T00:29:00.004+08:00

funny thing happened earlier today..
i was on my way back home from amk.
took bus 269 to get home from the interchange.
its a loop service you see.
i guess i fell asleep the moment i got a seat.
when i woke up i was back at the interchange.
the bus actually went one BIG round while i was sleeping away.
i had to wait for another bus back home again.

NOW you can laugh at me -.-
andmind you, this is just ONE OF THE MANY such incidents.
i felt like kicking myself there and then.
crap me!

ohwells.
been very busy and tired lately.
dont know busy with exactly what but just busy.
school stuff and work i guess.

it feels like school just started and we are already into our fourth week.
how TIME never fails to amaze me sometimes.
i feel like saying " WALANDEI!! " like how mingsiu does.

school is fine besides the fact that i know nuts for it still feels like the first week of school.
everything else SO-SO la.
haha!

MSN driving me nuts for the past few days, now blogger join in also.
WALANDEI!!!
sorry peeps no piccas.
freaking blogger.
if not can show u some of the sandcastle that i built.
what a waste.
nvm next time!

okay gotta ciao now! :)
TAKE CARE!

cant explain what i'm feeling these days.
PLAIN WEIRD!

2008-10-12T00:46:00.009+08:00

holidays over and school's starting.
BULLCRAP.
soooo NOT prepared to sit thru boring lectures, AGAIN.

but i can only say i spent this holiday doing things i love and hanging out with people i love.
what more can i ask for!?
altho alot of our initial plans didnt go as planned our spontaneous outings and last min plans were definitely a blast! :)
which also means i didnt get enough rest.
still dont feel recharged. LOL!

oh and i got this very awesome job.
BUILDING SANDCASTLES.
some may laugh at me.
but its really good stuff man.
Fun people, GOOD MONEY and free tan.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
alright i better get going.
blogger wouldnt let me post piccas.
hopefully i'll be back with updates from first week of school :)
till the take care peeps.

busy on the outside, but empty deep inside.

2008-09-08T05:12:00.003+08:00

HEYA!!
exams long over and i havent been updating.
sorry dudes!
well the start of my holidays kinda drained me out physically.
but dont ask me why cos i cant seem to remember myself.
LOL!

been slacking around lately.
just came back from a stayover two days ago.
it was fun slacking around,relaxing and spending time with ma babes!
LOL.
we shd have another stayover, AGAIN sometime soon.
this time with more activities! WOOOOOTS!

initial plan of our trip to BKK down the drain due to FUCKTARD issues they have there.
how sad!
so we're planning to go genting highland instead!
which i think will be equally fuN :D

so many things happened but i cant remember or maybe just plain lazy..(not a good sign!)
oh and i just went to yvonne's new place for a stayover.
but came back awhile ago.. timecheck : 5:18am
HAHA!

sorry no pictures with me for now.
and lastly my braces being such a BITCH!
BULLCRAP.
and im wishing for money to rain on me.
lol how dumb can my wishes get.

alrighty!
this was just a brief post i know.
will be back with more as soon as i can get my lay ass to blog!
meanwhile my fellow peeps lets enjoy our holidays to the FULLEST while we can!
:D
take care people!
ciaos!

BAD HAIR DAY!? lol!!

2008-08-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

four down ONE more to go.
im so in the holiday mood already!
friday COME FAST!!!

cant wait to enjoy myself with my "babes"!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH...!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!

2008-08-04T21:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!

all the things we did together, i will never forget! :D

2008-08-03T00:50:00.006+08:00

alright ive been really a very bad kid.
not going for lessons and all.
i know im gonna have to pay for all this SOMEDAY...

okay so this is what happened on friday...
We had an early mini birthday surprise celebration for both FRAULEEN and RACHEL.
We really struggled hard for it to be a surprise.
it worked i guess...atleast for RACHEL.
cos halfway thru frauleen could already smell something fishy whereas RACHEL being RACHEL (sotonghead) totally had no idea of what was going on till the last second of the surprise.
LOL!
It was nothing BIG really but hope you girls enjoyed yourselves.
if only frauleen could have spent the evening with us. :(
you can go to shuying's blog to know what happened.

http://devilangel-ying.blogspot.com/

sooo tat was the main highlight of the day!
but FRIDAY for me and rachel started very early.
i didnt attend PI while rachel did.
and so we met after she ended lesson.
we went to DONUT FACTORY dine in outlet at NOVENA.
we had sinful donuts there before we BUS-ED down to vivo to meet frau and shuying.
we bought movie tickets to "MONEY NO ENOUGH 2"
very nice storyline: TEAR JERKER!
haha!
made all four of us cry.
i guess that was the first time we saw each another cry. HAHAHA!
came out after movie looking like RUDOLPH THE RED NOSE REINDEER!
hahahahahaha!
anyhoo you guys shd go catch that movie!

before that we had sushi for lunch.
ALOT OF SUSHI.
ate till we felt so sick of it.
after the movie we had the prawn mee from the foodrepublic there.
so basically we were eating non stop the WHOLE day.
walked around vivo and then we slacked at the rooftop when it was darker outside.
so tired we just lay there "star gazing" with no STARS.
NICE ONE!

and then shuying had to go so the day ended with me and rach wandering around in DAISO.
we left with a few purchases there.
BUS-ED home after that.
had to wait freaking long for the bus.
by the time i reached home was about 12..
and just when i was walking i remembered ENGCHUA telling us to reach home BEFORE 9PM cos of hungry ghost festival.
luckily i didnt remind rachel of that if not she wouldnt have dared to go home alone.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

okay im done updating.
im sorry if it was wordy, boring and all.
im doing it so i could look back and rmbr all these memories next time!
:D
HOOOKAY maybe some pictures to end with.

before

After..yummy!

Sushi!

okay i know the colour combination suck big time but im so lazy to change it.
so thanks for bearing with it.
alright CIAOS~

what you see is not what you get.

2008-07-25T00:09:00.008+08:00

HELL-OO!

today was sooo WOOHOO!!!
sch ended at 1pm.
and obviously it was so boring to go home straight after so we [Rach and myself] being the makan khakis decided to head to IKEA for a FEAST!
woohoo!
we asked naomi and huiqin along this time round.
altho all we did was to EAT and walk around, the time was well spent laughing our asses off!
HAHA.
really hilarious things happened.
WE should hang out tgt more often!! :D
photos will paint a better picture later!

and then...
oh yeah on tuesday, rach and i went to the SGH to visit her friend, HIANG PENG who was scheduled for an operation this morning.Everything went on quite well i guess.
hopefully he'll have a speedy recovery! Alot of funny things happened that particular day also.
OMG LA. i think i laughed so SOOOO loud a few blocks away might have heard the echo.
CHIALAT!

okay now about tmr.
Considering that we have to attend only ONE pathetic lesson tmr we have decided to PON lesson once again.
its a freaking 8-10pm lesson. we'll for sure be late!
so might as well not go!
so YIPPEE!
I clearly know that its not supposed to be something happy cos exams are freaking NEAR.
but seriously not having to go to school just gets me hIGH!
LOL! poly has turned me into such a BAD BAD kid. :(
oh wells.

and sooo im not going to school, and i can foresee that rachel altho still contemplating is some how not gonna go also. HAHA!
which also means i finally got time to meet up with my nutcase FANGYING!
WOOHOO.
but as usual we're still thinking where we can go and what we can do in FREAKING SMALL singapore.

NUGGET ONE EH!

theres alot more to say but i know those reading alrdy dozing off alrdy.
cos even as im typing i feel like dozing off. HAHA!
so lets have some pictures to end with!

Our new makan khakis, naomi (left) and huiqin (right)

ORIGINAL makan khakis :D

the FOOOOOD that we ordered. YUMMILICIOUS!

rachel and her SHARK. (INSIDE joke!) HAHAHA!

All three of them bully me SIA! (inside joke)

TIME FOR DESSERT!

WHO STOLE THE COOKIE FROM THE COOKIE JAR!? >>>>

(hopefully she doesnt read my blog..!)

and with that i shall end my post.
CIAO!

have a great weekend peeps! :D

2008-07-22T01:03:00.003+08:00

I soooo love F.R.I.E.N.D.S !

Never fails to crack me up :D

GREEN with envy!

2008-07-20T14:44:00.004+08:00

First time ever that i woke up from a dream PERSPIRING and kind of panting.
SCARY..
feeling of helplessness.
panic attack.
breathless.
OMG.
hopefully it doesnt become a recurring dream.

when you see your life from someone else's eyes.

2008-07-18T22:59:00.007+08:00

my house is becoming more like a "PET FARM"!?
im serious..
i have like TWO dogs, ONE cat (the other ran away!), TWO guinea pigs, FOUR hamsters and TWO tanks full of fishes.
and just for the record i used to have two love birds and a rabbit.
PHEWWWW....
just typing it out can be tiring let alone taking care of them!
oh well my whole family, we're animal lovers.
i think its kinda obvious.
but sometimes it can get really hard to manage.
i shall take photos and post em up soon!
so you guys could have a good look at my FAMILY.
LOL!

okay as for today......!?
we went to frauleen's HOMIE!
had a nice time chillin out.
she has loads of movies la.
one album after another.
and so we watched this freaking lame movie which was supposed to scare us.
but in the end i got so irritated.

FREAKING LAME STORYLINE.

after which we went to chinatown and we had our dinner there.
food was GOOOOOOOOOOOOD.
ate tilll soooooo full i felt so uncomfortable walking after that.
and then off for my dental.
what a tiresome day!
but with good company and lots of laughter the day was FUN!

Things i really wanna get over and done with:

my FREAKING BRACES.
and my bike license (which just seems like forever :S)
MY remaining formal reports! not to forget PRACTICALS.

andandand LASTLY,

EXAMS!!

How about things i shouldnt do?

watching dramas when i've got a 101 better things to do. (very guilty)
staying up till dawn every day- really needa rest more whenever possible.
stop dozing off in buses and trains which always results in me ending up somewhere i dont even know.

and alot more which my clogged up brain cannot remember.

OHHHH i've got a "new" backpack!
thanks to frauleen for donating her bag. HAHA!
okay now i really cant remember anything else alrdy.
which means time to CIAO!

NIGHTS PEOPLE! :D

and in the darkest hours, I have wondered....

2008-07-18T01:45:00.004+08:00

HOLLA!

rach and i went to catch "THE DARK NIGHT" which i was badly looking forward to watch but it turned out to be kinda wasteful for me.
SIGH..
and its not because the movie wasn't interesting but because i hadn't slept the whole night before on wednesday. (due to some serious watching of drama!) LOL!
I was actually already half dead in school itself.

soooo throughout the whole movie i kept dozing off...
LOL.
and in the end i didnt even know what happened.
what a WASTE!
nvm i'll go watch it online AGAIN.
HAHA!
if not then maybe rach can explain to me what was going on..

other than that life's mundane routine is killing me ONCE AGAIN.
damn boring.
today naomi was talking about going for holidays together.
I so wanna go la!
just cant wait for that day when i can go travelling with FRIENDS.
how nice!

ehhhhhhh and also one of my friend needs to go for surgery due to some health problem.
so yeah, hopefully everything WILL turn out fine.
andandand im missing out on alot of meetups!
especially fangying!
it has nvr been easy for us to meetup i dont know why.
LOL.
sorry girl!
lets REALLY meet up soon!
yvonne also!
Lets all meetup some time!

okay i gotta ciao!
BYE PEEPS! :D

freaking BORED yet damn TIRED!
conclusion: feeling too bored can get tiring sometimes.
and that feeling SUCKS!

2008-07-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

NEW SKIN!
thanks jennifer for helping me finally change the look of my blog. :D

i know its plain and all but i'll try and work on it when i got the time.
altho i SUCK at all this codes and stuff.
just looking at it drives me NUTS, let alone WORKING on it.
thats why i call myself an IT idiot!

alright then now im off to do WONDERFUL reports!
WOOHOO.
how egg-citing!

TAKE CARE PEOPLE!
will be back :D

I'm a human, i've got feelings too.

2008-07-14T02:42:00.004+08:00

Sometimes no matter how busy life can get, DEEP DOWN inside you just feel this EMPTY-NESS.
well, its true for me atleast.
These questions that i have in my head, they're just killing me cos i have answers for none.
Life just seems to move on but i feel like im a DUMMY ; just another number to the growing population.
arrgghhh.....i just feel like theres no meaning to this life that im living.
yes you may say, the life i have i must have been lucky compared to so many others and all that.
why you? even i have said it before.
Life is good and peacful but just EMPTY.
IF YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.

okay enough of whats running thru my head.
as for now i shall just live my life like the "clown" that im very well known for.
im sorry this post had to turn out this way.
cos sometimes thinking about whats happening with me and my life i just cant help it.
cos its so DAMN EMPTY.

Reality leaves a lot to the imagination. John Lennon

2008-07-06T00:48:00.002+08:00

It has been REALLY REALLY LOOOOOOONG since i last came here.
so sorry guys.
and MANY MANY MANY things has happened during this period of time.
many ups and LOTS of downs.
HAHA.
but on the whole all is fine.
:D

thinking of WHAT happened i can only remember very few things.
One of them was my visit to the zoo after 283745903 years.
It was aini's birthday!
and the other one was kinda recent and that was the stayover at shuying's place.
alot of other things but i seriously can't remember now.

right now im so damn RELIEVED that freaking mst is O.V.E.R!
i cant imagine how i even got thru that "WEEK OF HELL"
it was very torturous.

OOOHOOHOOH i just remembered...
my lappy died on me.
It CRASHED.
damn sad la.
i have to admit i felt super lost for that three days.
i couldnt watch my F.R.I.E.N.D.S
how sad!
but now its all settled.

okay this post is definitely boring.
once again sorry for those reading cos whatever i just wrote came out exactly in this order from my THOUGHTS.
LOL!
picture wise theres alot.
being the very typical LAZY me i will upload it another day.

okay thats all for now.
ciaos!
TAKE CARE PEEPS!

2008-05-19T04:17:00.005+08:00

hey guys this is gonna be fast!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSmXrIKSXGk&feature=related

go watch this very amazing lil girl playing the piano.
Dont regret not watching cos this girl is so freaking talented.
this particular song that she wrote really swept me off my feet.
AWESOME!
really AWESOME!
and she was only 6 years old when she wrote her own songs.
OMG.
im really amazed.
but its been some time now.
so good for all those who already knew her earlier.
presenting to you EMILY BEAR!

LOL!
CIAOS!

re-post (extended)
after i posted the whole chunk you see above i went to watch more youtube videos and i realised that there were many other very young child prodigies who could play very well.
But somehow emily's songs still sounds the best to me.
cos firstly she writes her own songs and the songs she writes and plays just seem like its telling me a story.
so soothing and so....AWESOME!
so yeah HATS OFF to her!

okay now i really gotta ciao!
Its 4.32am. :)

2008-05-16T00:22:00.011+08:00

Anxiously watching the TV.
See the reporter on TV can't help sobbing while reading his report.
See a hand, just the hand
See the blood spill from wounds
See a cracked forehead
See corpse piled up or lined up

See a mother wailing over the purple blue dusty body of her child
See couples begging and crying, looking for their missing child
See teacher protecting the students while the roof falling down on him
See the tiresome troops still not wanting to give up
See them dig with bare hands and trudge hundreds of miles on foot

See the helicopter not making it through the cloudy rainy storm
See the aftershock of the quake burying the rescuer
see a 70 years old man who is still entitled as minister comforting the hungry child "grandpa will bring you biscuit" with reddened eyes while media called him 'inspecting'
See the nurse still working on the frontline while her husband was dug out, dead.
See a grandma giving up her chance, throwing her baby grandchild out of window at the moment of collapse

See celebrities who are worth billions just donate thousands to catch eyeballs
See people still wanna be "political" bashing about one child policy and Japanese building code when there are people actually dying under the rubbles.
If it were to happen, can Japanese code help the sunken of entire city?
Can more children guarantee fewer casualties?
See Japanese comments like "Chinese pig massacre"
See Taiwanese comments warning "stop donating for them, they will buy cannons to bombard Taiwan."
I wonder, where did their conscience go?
My heart almost ripped out, I just feel tired and powerless.
I don't know what else I can do. Just wish it were just a nightmare.

I guess im taking it all too hard but just cant seem to help this feeling.
Its like people are dying and there are still so many people out there who are just so ignorant. Would things be the same for them if it were their immediate family members or loved ones? i guess not!
From this i learnt how bad things can get and how ignorant human beings can be.

On my part, i feel so mean having three meals everyday.
and although they say singapore is very safe i beg to differ cos there is still this very HORRIBLE existence and that is TERRORISM.and i believe that if thingd are meant to happen no one can stop them.
CRAP.
as for now i shall just thank god for allowing me to wake up every other morning and having to go through life with such ease.

thats it for now.
ciao!

a mother grieving over her son's dead body.

Some parents did not have the privilege to even see their dead children.
All they got were these..

A child crying without even knowing whats going on around her.

Rescue troops giving ther life to save people.

ps: You think your life is miserable? THINK AGAIN.

2008-05-13T23:28:00.003+08:00

Recently alot of bad things happening EVERYWHERE!
Like cyclone nargis which hit myanmar on may 2nd.
even before things could settle down in myanmar china had to be hit by a 7.8 magnitude earthquake.my reaction was WTH!
what the hell is becoming of earth!
i guess its true the world is coming to an end, slowly...
Its sad to hear but somehow just seems true.

and the worst thing for me is that i cant do much to help other than just read and read and read the papers.
while people there are suffering with no food, no drinking water and worst of all having to go thru all this when they have just lost their loved ones.
crap!
they will really be in my prayers.

and just to make things bad they have got a 'WONDERFUL" government which is trying its "BEST" to help them by refusing help that other countries are offering.
those who have been catching up with news would know what im talking about.
Just hope things will get better for the people there.

also one of my lecturer, Ms Priya Naidu, her grandmother passed away just 1 day before mother's day i guess.
how sad can that be.
SIGH..

School wise im doing very badly.
and i cant blame no one but myself.
Im up to no good.
i better start doing something cos i guess ive tried my luck too hard all this while.
i dont thing its gonna stick with me for THAT long.
especially this time round.
but frankly ive got no interest in what im doing.
SIGH.

Okay enuf of my rants..
On a lighter note, MANCHESTER UNITED ; CHAMPIONS AGAIN!
WOOHOO!!!! euphoria !!
GO MAN U!

okay thats it for now!
take care people CIAO!

2008-05-04T00:42:00.015+08:00

I guess this is the first time ever that me and rachel are meeting up for one whole week STRAIGHT! ( Rach if u're reading, I BET U HAVEN'T REALISED! KUA-KUA :P)

Mon-Fri = SCHOOL
Sat & Sun = meetup to " STUDY "

And so for the past whole week, have been going to school but not for all lessons.
Been pon-ing alot of lessons since the start of school. and even if im present, im ALWAYS late. and its abit too late to say this but guess whats the name of my class tutor!?
MR POK! (not P.O.R.K)
the first sentence he said in his very first lesson was " im Mr Pok!" and i burst out laughing! haha!
alright i know im mean but just couldnt help it.
Okay so on friday went for a movie after school with rachel and naomi.
We watched HANSEL and GRETAL. cos naomi didnt want to watch nims island.
oh ya, and before that we had duck rice that was on a show on TV i guess! naomi said so.H
and the duck and roasted POK rice i had was delicious! its in cine-leisure foodcourt!
you can try when you are there :) and so ya back to the movie.
It was okay for me and rachel but naomi found it very nice. she even said she wants to watch it again! I guess we have different taste when it comes to movies..

And today rachel and me met up to study in the library and alot of funny things happened.
all random stuff but funny enuf to LMAO.

alright random stuff...
BLA BLA BLA...

and oh ya. i can't believe me and pris joined the SP ADVENTURE CLUB!
seems like fun but i dont knw how till training starts. their camp is coming up next weekend. WOOTS!

i guess thats about it.
im sorry if this post bored the HELL-OUT-OF YOU.
TAKE CARE!
ciaos ;)

2008-05-01T03:51:00.001+08:00

Well, i guess i just suck as a friend.
thats why.

its hurting, somehow.

2008-04-29T00:24:00.010+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
Life's rather busy nowadays, although im rotting during lessons.
and schools been kinda fun with all those funny people around!
although i enjoy their company i somehow miss all my old mates.
and all those times we spent tgt CRAPPING.

and time seems to pass by rather fast which means alot of studying to catch up with, more practicals = datasheets! = FORMAL REPORTS = SEVERE HEADACHE!!!!
oh man im dying!
but luckily i've got wonderful people in my group!
and for that im thankful!

Been hanging out with rachel since day one and we have come to a conclusion!
We love food and thus we are the MAKAN KHAKI'S!
and we also share alot of other common topics!
YOOHOO!
we are even planning to do a food hunt and make it into a show for SELF-ENTERTAINING purposes!but if it turns out good, we thought of posting it on youtube!
and we are thinking of casting our good friends as "GUEST APPEARENCES" on the show.
LOL.i knw probably we were thinking too far.but i really am looking forward to it!! WOOTS.
*GOD-WILLING*

and i miss all the CLS peeps!
feel kinda out of place ever since FO ended. :(

"CLS IS MY LIFE"

HAHAHA!
should go to clubhouse more often.
my fault!

andandand tmr is FREECONEDAY!!
WOOOOOOOOHHHOOOOOOOOOO!!!
alright thats it for now!
wanted to post some peek-tures, but freaking blogger wouldnt allow me to do so.
so i've got no choice! some other time yeah!?
till then, TAKE CARE PEOPLE!

trying hard to fill the empty-ness.

2008-04-17T20:53:00.008+08:00

Schools been great with a whole bunch of "NEW" friends in class.
Lectures officially began today.
For the first hour i could totally understand what the lecturer was talking about after which i just couldnt absorb. KUAKUA :/

was supposed to meet pris for something but got cancelled.
and then came this very sad news.
which got me thinking.
alicia's father passed away.

Although we cant stop nature from taking its own course, its hard to accept sometimes.
especially someone so close to you.
Its part and parcel of life.

its hard to imagine.
i dont wanna imagine.
and i wanna say this although its annoyingly repeated all the time.
treasure what you have now cos you wouldnt know the hurt and pain of not having it till its gone.

dearest alicia,

i know its hard but BRACE UP!
and try and be your normal self yeah?(laughing self)
this is what your father might want.
for you guys to study hard, do well in life and support your mom.
and no matter what, rachel and myself will always be there for you :)
take care girl <3

and so life goes on.
so yeah i have learnt a lesson somehow.
so thats it for now.
hope everybody is having a great time in school!

TAKE CARE PEOPLE!
CIAOS~

A ROAD WITH NO LANES?

........

2008-04-12T00:56:00.021+08:00

oh my god!

Two more days to school! OH MAN! :(
This holiday has been great fun but seriously tiring.
Didnt manage to have a full recharge this time round.
had a good time with all the FO peeps.
Most of my holiday was spent in school and NOW i gotta go back to school for another sem of lessons :(
but its okay, like i got a choice.

Met up with mousie leo for shopping yesterday.
Its been really long since we hang out together.
just the two of us.
HAHA.
so it was nice catching up with her.
and she is so excited for school to start!
and me here so tired :(

Rachel is in the same class as me. WOOTS!! :)

i havent been updating much on what i've been up to.
(hope the pictures will make up for that later!)
so today im gonna post some pictures that were taken some time back :)
and till im back for more.
take care people!

if you were wondering who is this RACHEL im talking about.
TADA. presenting to you my classmate(with braces on NOW) RACHEL aka RACHITE!?
:)
seeya in school girl!

and this picture was taken by rachel on our "FIELD TRIP" to IKEA!

cant remember when this pic was taken but its yvonnie, myself and tingting!

and this is my dearest SHIOBAK!!

and we are LYNI!
LYNA + AINI = LYNI :)

I'll definitely miss this clique.
(ps:no matter what happened between us i will remember the happy memories that we shared.)

and this is my nutcase partner FANGYING aka miso. LOL!
Have a great time in your "new" environment!
ALL THE BEST :)

PONTENS :)
will miss the crappy times we shared!

and thats lyni and emmu in the background with his HAIRSPRAY hairstyle.
(inside joke!) :)

Im sorry if the order of the pics didnt seem right.
to all my friends in poly: Hope u have a fruitful academic year ahead!

ps: I miss THE L WORD truckloads! :(
i wish you knew.

2008-03-30T01:50:00.006+08:00

FO CAMP 0809 has ended.
It was such a blast!
i had so much fun with my group SHIOBAK.
they were all so adorable.
i didnt have the heart to leave them on the last day.
im so glad for being their mummy.

But somehow im sad that it has ended.
My kias all so cute i love them all!
they really made my experience worthwhile.
the memories they left behind will be with me forever!

and this is for my beloved PONTENS!
you guys really rocked my life.
I dont regret at all being a GL.
our trainings, i will miss those times together.
the tears and the laughters that we shared and all our happy times together.
the best family i ever had!
we must all keep in contact kay!?

and last but not least i would like to thank all my wonderful friends for making my 18th birthday a memorable one.
you know who you are!
its soo good to know ure remembered and loved!
thank you guys!
pictures will be uploaded once i get them.
as for now take care people!
CIAOS ;)

2008-02-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!

Its been eons since i last blogged!
Was caught up with so many things to do thats why!
and i guess cause of that i must have lost even the few readers that i used to have.
HAHA!
anyway, whatever it is now IM BACK!

So i guess everyone must have been having a great time holiday-ing.
SO the most exciting things in my lfe right now are:

1) being chosen as GL, ponten ;)
2)watching this drama, The L word!

OMG! OMG! OMG!
This two things are gonna keep my holiday going!
so for those who are holiday-ing PLEASE do enjoy while u can .
for those who are still having exams: JIAYOU!
and for those who are still schooling as per normal: PERSEVERE ON!!

im gonna go catch my drama!
will promise pictures in my next post yeah?!?
till then, take care peeps!
CIAOS ;)

2007-12-27T00:18:00.001+08:00

woah!!
HELLO EVERYONE!
firstly i would like to wish all of you a belated MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

and a coming HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Okay so let me update u guys on my GYL; which im missing so badly now.
so for those of you who dont know what im talking about GYL was basically a 'LEADERSHIP CAMP' so most probably u guys will be thinking...bad accomodation.bad amenities.sucky food and so on..
But that was not the case this time round.
The stay there was really not bad with a good comfortable resort room with all basic necessities available and even more.
and the food especiallly was not bad at all for a camp!
LOL.
We had like buffet for ALL THREE MEALS.
i swear breakfast was the best among all!
Even had refreshments everytime we used the so called 'multi purpose' room they had there.

My group MOPIKO!!
WEROCKEDTHEGALANIGHT!!
We won the best performance for our skit and our catwalk.
Our main highlight was BALA as GEISHA. YATAA!!
lol.
and me supposedly a hip-hopper became a MAFIA!
and only god knows why.
We had great fun.REALLY!
then after which we danced till after midnight!
i danced till i had blisters!

The activities we had were limited but memorable.
like the paintball was memorable cause it left me with the biggest blue black wound that i ever had in my life.
pictures will be posted later!

and also the trekking was really WONDERFUL!
I want more!
but too bad its over alrdy!
and im so glad my team MOPIKO bonded soo well.
and my dear roomates JENN and MYUK!
we had fun fun fun!

and oh ya i found another retarded person.
CINDY!
She is one CCRRAAZZYYYYY fella la!
spastic and just retarded!
LOL.
Cindy IF u are reading this i know what u must be thinking.
"LOOK WHO'S TALKING!"
i swear she is really spastic!
aiya i knw what..im missing it all so badly!
oh wells..

and now christmas.
many things to say but to keep it short it was fun and well spent with family members and friends!
Hope u guys had great fun this holidays too!
and for now PICTURES!!

This was taken before our departure.
and it basically shows how SHORT the guy on the xtreme left
is and how TALL me and cindy are!
=((

thats their so called public toilet!

and thats me in the striking RED gyl shirt!

Wonderful scenery.

MYUK my roommate!

and this is jenn and me!

Roommates & classmates.LOL!

and this is the cosy-little-romantic room that we shared!

the beds had mosquito nets too!
nice right!?!

okay there lots more!
but i swear im so tired alrdy!
ill be back with more the next round!
till then be good for new year.
think of workable resolution otherwise forget about reolutions.LOL!
take care peeps!
CIAOS =)

2007-12-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
so sorry for not updating.
though many things have happened and ARE happening..LOL!

i knw how it feels each time you load my blog and u see the same old post.
HAHA.
But well i have been real busy for the past two weeks atleast.
so most prolly ill update say...when holiday starts?!?
yeah..sorry guys.
though i know i only have THAT FEW readers reading.LOL!
Will be back for more next time!
CIAOS =)

2007-12-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

Pheww....
Have been real busy for the past whole week i should say.
Busy with school work, preparation for xmas and yadayadayada the list goes on and on..

Last friday finally got to relieve some stress.
Was out with mommy on a DATE.

We had BIG and sinful burgers from Carls JR for dinner.

We managed to catch ENCHANTED.
nice show to relieve stress.seriously!
call me noob or what but it was my first time to watch a show in VIVO GVMAX.
and the place is freaking HUGE i swear!
so big and spacious.

we camwhored after that as usual.
like 'DUH'!!
LOL.
and i saw a few people also along the way...HAHA
then to starbucks and off to catch the last train home.
ive got loads of pictures to post but now no time!
so maybe some other time PEEPS!

goodnight! PEACE OUT =)

ps: Some people expect others to know their limits.But many a times they dont know their own limits.How contradicting huh??

ciaos!

2007-11-27T19:52:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl.
Spend a few days thinking of many things.
and for now studies and family will be my first priority.
If i dont study i will be doomed for sure.

And seriously i cant wait for this year to be over.
but many things are gonna happened before it ends.
Christmas is coming up but im not feeling excited.
I dont knw why.

Many things to do, be it in school or family stuff.
ALOT!
Nowadays life has been getting pretty dull.
so maybe ill blog lesser since theres nothing much to share.
The only thing tt makes me high currrently is DRAMA.
But i believe when production really really starts its gonna be serious work already.

so for now, i better get started with my work.
ciaos!

ps: I must have been freaking foolish to think tt it was YOU.
Tell me what would you do when it all falls apart?

2007-11-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

This week was quite bad for me.
especially the start of the week.
Was very moody.
Was feeling quite disturbed actually.

I wanna apologise to my clique of girls in school for dampening the mood.
Im sorry.
It was not on purpose.
real sorry for getting agitated so easily.
so not me!

and i tried to find my old self back again.
i think i did.

ps: When smiling, laughing and staying happy and cheerful becomes a chore...
im plain TIRED.

2007-11-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wish i cant see certain things.
and even if i could see i wish i couldnt understand what is going on.
How i wish...

it simply hurts.

ps:How this world can turn so cold..

2007-11-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

Failed like two tests already.
EXCEL and CPPB.
next expected module to fail: Enginneering maths.
OH MY.

Results aside.
today we had the second drama meeting.
storyline is confirmed.
PHEWWW...
finally.
shall start working on the lines next mtg.

and im just not feeling too right these days.
just not the right feeling.
I guess its due to my performance in school.
No one has given up on me till this day.
And i know i must not give up on myself.
Its not like im failing after studying so much for the papers.
Im not putting in enough effort thus this kinda results.
I know it.
i know it.
i know it.
but im such a freaking WHATEVER that doesnt want to do anything about it.
argghhh....
WAKE UP LYNA!!!
WAKE UP!

ps: I stand still as the earth moves around me.
Procrastination is running in circles around me.

2007-11-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know WHO is falling in love with y our smile.

i thought id share this from a msg i received..

2007-11-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

HOLLA people!
Im finally back for a proper post.
HAHA ;)
okay anyway the whole week was soooo TAXING.
seriously.
Had quizzes like EVERDAY la.
omg.
damn the teachers for squeezing all the quizzes in the same week.
Im so gonna fail my quizzes.
F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G tired la.
my brain feels like its clogged up.
oh my!

actually i feel quite down when i think of my performance in school.
really feel like ive grown to be stupid-der!
I dont used to be like this before.
used to be very hardworking.
Had the drive in me to do well.
and i was doing well.
but in poly.
ive become so lazy.
lost all determination to do well.
though there are a million reasons to why i must do well.
i dont knw whats happening to me.
and i knw that ultimately its all up to me whether my future is gonna be bright.
and i knw i have to do something about my poor attitude.
sigh...

where is my drive?
where is my determination to do well?
Gotta do something..
I HAVE TO.
sigh..

ps: why do i feel like im losing control?

I feel so much but yet its hard to say nor show.why??

2007-11-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

tired.
so many quizzes this week.
just came back after drama meeting.
just KILL ME!
and im so freaking dead.

2007-11-10T01:18:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOO FREAKING TIRED.
PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
REEEAAALLLLYYY!!
WHOLE BODY IS ACHING NOW.
HELP ME!
and oh ya GOODNIGHT!
CIAOS!

2007-11-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

I came here to post but ended up staring at my laptop for minutes.
but that doesnt mean i got nothing to write about just that im feeling pretty much disorganised.
oh ya and todays' excel was CRAP for me.
50% gone just like that.
nvm i'll study hard for the next one.
i dont wanna repeat THIS module especially.
such a waste of time.

and lastly the way things are going.
I cant actually tell if im supposed to be HAPPY or SAD.
sigh...
Does HAPPY times always mark the starting of a new saddening period?
I GUESS SO.
thats how it is for me ATLEAST.

When i first decided to use this song for my blog.
i kinda didnt have a feel to it.
because the lyrics just didnt mean a thing to me at THAT time.
but now it does..

Cause what we had was built on lies.

2007-11-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

Im starting to dread school so badly now.
Though e-learning sucks but still school is worst off.

I always believed that its not good to feel hatred.
But now its creeping into me.
This is not GOOD.

I hate you for what you've done and not done and for what youre doing.

2007-11-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, e-learning kinda sucks.
But im almost done.
left with CPPB and the major one FORMAL REPORT!
Yet to start with these two.

Besides that im feeling kinda detached from I DONT KNOW WHAT.
like seriously, the feeling just isnt right.
I keep on having this feeling like something wrong is happening or going to happen somwhere to someone i know.
you knw that kinda insecure feeling.
yeah i hate to feel like this.
and best of all i cant help it AT ALL.
and just when things dont seem so fine ppl have to spoil my freaking day!
ARGGHHH!

ps:I went past THAT place today.
and it reminded me of the past.
I miss you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.
I couldnt help it so i had to shed a tear.
I miss you,I really do.

2007-10-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

Just got back from BBQ.
It wasnt reallly FUN but okay la.
enjoyable.
i mean the FOOODD!
haha ;)
Besides that it was good exercise for me blading and walking to and fro from one end to the other end.
LOL.

back to reality..
For all i know this is my e-learning week, I have so many things to do and yet i have started on none!
I knw i have to study.
but my focus is somewhere ELSE for now.
Oh my god!
and im so freaking tired!
and yet here typing.
How contradicting can i get!
alrighty gotta go slp!
going out tmr to STUDY like finally!
e-learning here i come!!

ps:I have finally let go..
I managed to numb a FOOLISH,SILLY,STUPID part of me.

(I wish i cud say these words without looking back but im still in the process)
Letting go is not as easy as you think it is.

2007-10-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

Just got back home and was reading thru my post that i had posted and i realised that i said "MY CHEWY" instead of " MS CHEWY".
LOL.
wonder why such a mistake.
so yeah thought i blog abt it.
HAHA.
i knw its lame to post abt such a LAME thing.
im freaking tired now.
CIAOS!

ps:it all started like a dream and ended.

2007-10-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

Once again HELLO BELLO people!
Ive been really busy these days.
going out everyday from morning till after midnight!
woah!
feeling tired but heaps of FUN!
okay here goes..

24th october 2007

After school was out with mommy!
We went to vivo had yoshinoya for lunch and after which we walked around for some time.
Played a fool in TOY'R'US with all those HELLOWEEN stuff before we settled down in STARBUCKS for a drink.
and before we knew a few hours had passed!
LOL.
and this was significant to me cos this was the first time we had a really GOOD chat!
thanks mommy!
then we had to leave cos ppl needed space to sit and all.
Though we were not hungry we went to get sushi before we headed to the 'rooftop' of vivo.
We had our dinner there and continued chatting and took pictures.
then home after that!
pictures for now!

THE CRUISE THAT WE SAW!

Yummylicious!

starHUBBERS! LOL.

bORN TO BE ONE?!?

aLIENATION!

SUPPOSEDLY A PIRATE!

PUMPKIN HEAD!

lunch at YOSHI!

HELLOWEEN MADNESS!

US!

25TH OCTOBER 2007

I did something which i never thought i'd ever do in my life.

My dear friend MR CHANG GUI MING and me actually roller blade-ded all the way to EAST COAST PARK.

Till now i cant quite believe i actually went thru the streets with my blades on.

LOL.

But it was uber fun la.

REALLY.

but damn tiring especially with school the next day.

Lets the pictures do the talking!

MR CHANG!

MY blades!

our cab fare back home!

we unexpectedly got a mercedes!

i had loads of fun blading all the way there though the route we took was quite bad.

A once in a lifetime kind of experience.

will let you ppl knw if i were to do it again!

HAHA.

26th october 2007

After school was out with ruiwen and mommy.

We went for makan at this place called THE ASIAN KITCHEN.

Food was okay!

go try if you have a chance.

then we were by the bay slacking away.

after which my chewy had to go off so we sent her off and we went like ' STARBUCKS HERE WE COME!!'

We had a good chat once again.

talking about our good old times in school.

i dont know why but i just enjoy chatting with mommy!

and we called it a day.

But by the time i reach home it was about 12 plus almost one!

HAHA.

PICTURES!

WOAH im tired after such a long post.

The longest ive ever posted.

Next week is E-learning for me.

going for barbeque with my clique of girls.

Lets have fun!

till then take care peeps!

signing off.

RETARD.

2007-10-27T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hello Bello peeps!
Last few days were...TERRIFIC? HAPPY? SAD?
haha...
yeah.
Quite a few things happened.
things which i want to do again and things that i dont wanna go thru again.
im so effing tired now.
so pls spare me for tonight.
pls come back tmr all my loyal readers cos im gonna have alot of things to update tmr!
GOODNIGHT FOR NOW!

ps: lets just be F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
i guess we'd be better this way.

2007-10-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

I realise im always lying to myself.
like REALLY.
i've always thought i had friends.
well i do have friends but if you get what i mean......
but when it all comes down to me i realise im all alone.
and its not anyone elses fault but MINE.
cos i dont share my stuff with anyone.
not because i dont want to but i really dont know how to.
and i dont wish to dampen ppls mood with my so called 'STORY'

Problems aside.
sometimes or rather most of the time its my thoughts and the way i look at things.
and the worst part is I will somehow come to a conclusion on my own.
and at the end of the day.
MOOD= SAD.
thats why i say I hate that i think the way i do.

and to make it all worse some cheesy song will be playing on my phone or the radio.
sigh.
I told myself not to be like this a zillion time atleast.
But its not working.
It all comes back to square one again.
I wonder how im gonna survive with such a pessimistic mind.
Dont know who can help also!

~~Ihatethatiloveyou.~~

2007-10-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

and if you guys happen to be damn bored and really nothing to do.
pls do try doing this quiz.
sure to drive you nuts!
HAHA ;)

The Impossible Quiz

HAVE FUN!

2007-10-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say for today.

Same old BORING and MUNDANE routine.

Some uPS and some DOwns.

Gotta learn to live with certain things.

alrighty.

PICTORIAL UPDATES!

Some pictures that we snapped as we walked.

ROWS AND ROWS OF CHOCOLATES!

our HENNA!

okay tts all for now though there are loads more!

sometimes it takes time to see true colours.
I guess ive seen yours.

I guess im just too sensitive.

CIAOS!

2007-10-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

woah Woah WOAH!

Im so freaking tired ever since the day before ITM test.

It all started that day

not enuf sleep, had school the following days non stop.

Many things going on till late into the night and yada yada yada...

and finally today was my favourite day of the week FRIDAY!

Had KFC for lunch as always and DRAMAAAA!!

then after school went Little India with MOMMY!

It was fun to be walking around Little India with her.

She can be reallly crappy at times.HAHA.

We had DUMB briyani for dinner.

She chose mutton while i took chicken.

It was nice especially with many things to talk about at the same time.

Walked the whole of Mustafa shopping centre.

was nice and interesting.

after which we had ourselves TATOOOOEEEDD the indian way.

HENNA!

mommy did it on her hands and me on my legs.

We snapped quite a number of pics of things we saw.

and now as expected im FREAKING tired.

to FRAU:

thanks for the great night.

i sure did enjoy myself.

i love it when we can actually talk about almost everything.

HAHA.

Totally rocks la!

(cos lyk tt free from constipation)

and hope u like your henna!

Pictorial updates will be done when im feeling NOT-SO-TIRED!

now im off to catch my ugly sleep!

and this wekend is gonna be busy for me.

OMG!

ps: further apart.

Is that whats happening to us now?

I'll try to keep myself well occupied.

2007-10-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

oh wells, many things happened in the past few days.
Dont wish to talk about it here.
Im here because i feel a need to thank my dearies in school who are there for me.
ESPECIALLY frauleen!
Thanks for worrying

You might have thought that i laughed it off (about your post)
But really i was touched in a way.
After soo long i see someone who actually took time off to post about me.
It was kind of an eye opener to me.
Your every word made me think.
How stupid i was to have been lost in a world of stupidity.
I will try from now on to be better of course.
THANKS LOADS MOMMY!
You are the best!

and as for jenn.
Thanks for always asking me if im okay.
Thanks for sharing your problems with me.
cos with every single thing i hear from you i learn something new.
be it good or bad.
HAHA!

As for that retarded ruiwen.
I know ure stuck.
If you need me im here for you.
Please take good care of yourself.
and stop sleeping in class.
SUCH A BAD INFLUENCE!

Im so thankful i have you guys!
Lets make good memories out of the last sem that we have together!

ps: though things have taken on a clearer path im still kinda confused.
lesson learnt: You dont need a reason to help.

pictorial updates!

camera shy!

a bunch of act cool and act cutes!

we couldnt think of a better post already.

i know she loves me!

actually we were supposed to look calm in this pic?

so do we look calm?

HAHA.

ciaos ppl!

2007-10-14T21:11:00.001+08:00

I dont know exactly why but im feeling blue these days.
Though im smiling and laughing on the outside.
On the inside things seem like they cant be helped.
In a total state of confusion.
Many disorganised thoughts running thru my mind.
you know when u stand in some crowded place, rooted to the ground.
everything else around you is moving just so fast.
and you feel soooo confused.
well thats how things are for me now.

I dont know why sometimes i think the way i do.
Just hate it sometimes.
On a lighter note, i think kittens are so damn cute!

I wonder if you mean what you say.
Be it good or bad.
It will be good if i can numb my feelings.
but too bad.
I just cant.

2007-10-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

Today i was on my way back home after watching a movie.
Wanting to blog about so many things.
But you spoiled it all.
you got no fucking idea how irritated and angry i am.
i cant stand it anymore.

p.s: FUCK!!!
I knew that my day was gonna end up like this.

Even the stars refuse to shine.

2007-10-11T10:39:00.000+08:00

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down But wait...
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat (But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
Woahooo woah It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

ps: this song doesnt really apply to me NOW.
But im lovin it!

2007-10-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

woah!
Past few days were pretty hectic.

running around EVERYWHERE!
It has been fun but tiring though.

I got my new handphone already.Like finally!

My new number is 93838431.

yeah take it down if you need me!

If youre thinking what phone isit....

TADA!

Proudly presented to you by LYNA!

HAHA.

Not soo nice ppl might say but i just love it =))

and FYI this phone has pretty much helped for my camwhoring sessions.

Here we go!

Woohoo!

Spiderwoman?!?! haha.

MOMMY! (camera shy!)

Retard!

we were bored.

so we took cam-whored in the train on the way back home.

The typical AhLians' One TO ten woRX!!!

LOL.

Thats all for now.

and i love my blog song!

ciaos peeps!

ps:I dont know whats happening.

confused!

2007-10-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

I just went to read my horoscope.
and this is what it had to say.

Life is pretty sweet for you right now, and you're feeling a little bit better about the changes that have come about lately. It's a good time to deal with life on its own terms (for a change).A love interest sparks a new feeling in you. This rogue emotion pulses through your consciousness, rendering your defenses useless. Don't fight it -- let it run its course. Maybe this one's a keeper.

LOL.

2007-10-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

HOLLA PEOPLE!

Yesterday saw MR CHANG GUI MING in causeway.
After quite long!
and i was reminded of those times we cycled in the night into the morning.
even roller blading all the way to LIXIANS' house.
I really miss those times.
REALLY.
I wanna go cycling and blading again.
but for now i cant i guess.
no one to go with me.
oh, what a loner!

and once again i was blog hopping.
and i realised i love yvonnes blog song the best!
Its not even a song to start with.
Its a piece of wonderful MUSIC.
slow and soothing.
when i listen to it i feel like im in my own LALA land.
A land where i get to see things that i dont get to see in REAL life.
so beautiful, so calm.
I just love it.

Hear it for yourself.
www.sleepyyhead--me.blogspot.com (hope u dont mind yvonnie)
ENJOY!
ciaos.

p.s: I dont exactly know what im doing.
Nor am i sure of the path im taking.
GOD BLESS ME!

2007-10-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

All of a sudden im starting to dread weekends.
BOOOOORRRIIIINNGGG!
I rather be in school.
though lessons are torturing.
ahhh whatever!

ps: many things inside
just cant say out!
im HAPPY!
and i hope it remains this way ;)

If what i read from the website was true then i guess i should be expecting a bitter end real soon.
but i know its not gonna be forever :(
ciaos!

2007-10-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what i made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

This song does mean something.

2007-10-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had a good time having dinner with yvonne and fangying.
After which we went to catch a movie.
I NOW PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY.
Its a freaking funny show.
For those who have not watched it please do before its gone.
The priest especially is damn funny!
okay enuf of promoting that movie.

I've been waking up late for school for the past few days.
thats bad.
cant seem to sleep early.
bad habits following from holidays.
hmm...
and also im sooo looking forward to drama lesson tmr.
Cant wait!
and for all i know i dont seem to be coping well for the modules that im taking.
in other words i cant really digest everything the lecturer is saying.
either im falling asleep or i just dont get it.
sigh..
gotta try this sem.
really have to.

Im feeling contented with these few days.
but somehow something is telling me its not gonna last.
lets see.

i just went to format my computer.
all pictures gone.
so no pictorial updates.
:)
as for now, ciaos ppl!

GOODNIGHTY!!

P.S: Thanks for making me happy.(for now atleast)

2007-10-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

For the very first time i felt sooo worried for someone.
Never felt this way before.
so helpless.
msg you NO REPLY call you NO ANSWER!
and when i finally knew that u were fine and standing right before me i was soo relieved I almost cried.
Just couldnt show it.
I had to be strong for you atleast.

BUT.....

I'm so glad its ALL over
I'm so happy for you!
so are jenn and frau.
Its during times like this when u knw who your real friends are.
Im not saying myself but i could see it in frau and jenn.
We were just too worried.
and now its like total YAYNESS!!
I hope it all ends well.

Thanks jenn.I was touched when u told me about the money issue.
THANKS MY DEAR GIRL!
Lets rock on!
I soooooo miss our retardness!
Lets put all our problems behind and live life as it is.
HAHA =)

p.s: I will be there for you.
We will be there for you.
We shall all be there for each another!

much loves <3

2007-10-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

Im VERY worried and im sad at the same time.
i know why im worried but i dno why im sad.
i guess its a package.
aiya, FUCK IT LA!

feeling TOTALLY helpless.
i hope tmr is a better day.
sigh.

2007-10-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

Pheww..
Im just feeling tired.
both mentally and physically.
going to school is such a chore.
sitting through long lectures is even worse.OMG!
Its so torturous to know that u still have another 1 hour 45mins to go
when the lesson has just started and you already feel sick sitting there.

Im having such a bad headache now.
I guess it must be due to the long bus ride.
I used to love long bus rides, but now its giving me a bad headache.
Maybe because i was thinking too much along the way.
im going to pop two panadols before i turn in.
I hope it helps.

p.s: I hope it all ends well. BE STRONG!
You have to get outta this!

2007-09-30T03:55:00.001+08:00

First week of school is over.How fast?!?
Anyway i had great fun during DRAMA.
never expect the teacher to be so 'high'.
Hope we will have fun though the teacher said we will be very busy throughout.
never regret choosing drama and importantly i guess me and Frau were lucky to get it.
other than that first week was okay besides the fact that i overslept on Friday and didnt attend lesson.
I'll try to minimise such happenings.I said 'TRY TO'
HAHA.
and somehow friday was a happy day!!
Im glad i found a webby to catch all the seasons of F.R.I.E.N.D.S
I miss that series so badly.
Im sooooo gonna watch it NOW!
CIAOS PPL =)

I doubt you know, but u made my day somehow =)
THANKS!

2007-09-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

Shit! Shit! Shit!
School has REALLY started afterall.
I seem to be crapping every single day.
But the mask that im wearing, i dont know how to remove it.
and its getting harder each day to bottle up feelings and thoughts inside of me.
and seeing ppl suffer isnt of any help.
Instead it just makes it worse.
I wonder why things are, the way they are.
because no matter how hard i try to be OPTIMISTIC things are still the same at the end of the day.

Which is the right direction for me?

2007-09-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SEM TWO WAS okay la.
hah.
Other than the fact that it was good to be back with friends the day was kinda boring. and without my phone i felt abit lost with nothing to check and stare into from time to time.
oh wells, i hope i'll be getting a new phone soon. SSSSOOOOOOOOONNNN. im not asking for much. just a phone that looks okay and has the basic neccesities like calling sms-ing?
but of course if i get a good one then B.I.N.G.O! just gotta wait.
besides that i know i must study harder this sem for better results of course.
no offence but i dont wanna end up like my two classmates who had to repeat certain modules.Its such a pain in the ass.
and oh ya i forgot to say that i got a very LAME lecturer for ITM.
Shanbei was right indeed!
okay thats all for now peeps.
gotta go catch my koyuki and LAST SAMURAI before i turn in!

p.s: Happy advanced birthday to my beloved brother R-I-C-K-I-Y!!

2007-09-23T21:46:00.000+08:00

I have OFFICIALLY really lost my phone for the first time.
so most likely you cant reach me.
for now u can either tag my board or send me an offline msg if you dont see me online.
what a bad start for a new sem.
WONDERFUL!

2007-09-23T20:44:00.001+08:00

HOLLA PEOPLE!
some pictures as promised earlier =)

candle light festival

NUTCASES IN ACTION!

NUTCASE pose no.1

NUTCASE pose no.2

NUTCASE pose no.3

ciaos!

2007-09-23T07:29:00.000+08:00

Holiday is coming to an end real SOON.
Monday is the starting of a new sem.
how fast?!?
Time doesnt seem like its waiting for me.
rather its pulling me along in its own speed.
ok whatever!

anw yesterday was fun!
met up with celeste like after soooo long.
im sorry for always turning you down girl.
also nad,yvonne and fangying.
and after soo long i really got to laugh my ass off.
HAHA.
all thanks to FANGYING the NUTCASE!
we went shopping in the day and had our own advanced lantern festival ( more like candle festival huh. ) in the night at the hilltop of yishun park.
LOL.
yeah it was fun.
We had fun singing, laughing and what not!
alrighty..
pictures will be up in my next post.
ciaos ppl!

2007-09-21T05:39:00.000+08:00

alright, here goes...
I've realised that i shouldnt rant on my problems too much.
cos afterall they cant be classified as problems.
They are just my thoughts.
There are sooo many people out there with HUGE problems.
and even they live past each day looking forward to a better day.
so why cant I?
oh wells,
now my sleeping time is TOTALLY screwed up and all thanks to ONE LITRE OF TEARS!
i watched the whole series without taking a break.
nice show though i didnt really cry that much.
Just had tears rolling down my cheeks in some scenes.
Oh and schools starting real soon.
i gotta start studying already.
actually i feel like saying sooo many things
but dont know what and dont know how to.
and its getting way too random.
ciaos ppl!

I dno what im feeling right at this moment.
Just wish for more REAL joy and laughter in my life ;)

a quote to ponder on:

When one door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not s
ee the one which has been opened for us.

so many WHYS'

2007-09-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

Was initially thinking of posting more pictures.
BUT...
im just not in the best of moods today.

sometimes i wonder if my presence ever matters to anyone.
and once again im lost in a big world of QUESTION MARKS.
sigh.

Just like this egg.

labels: SAD =(

2007-09-16T03:08:00.000+08:00

OH WELLS,
Ever since my nick was the carebear thingy i have been receiving many "carebear hugs"
thanks peeps!
i was just talking with fangying, lixian and sam.
these bunch of dearies are freaking funny.
They really made me laugh till i almost drop.
HAHA!
thanks DEARIE's for making my day =)

I LUBBER YOU GUYS <33

fangying its time u differentiate ADMIRALTY and SEMBAWANG!
MUCH LOVES :)

2007-09-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

im back!
just wanna write about my class chalet that i just came back from.
Though it was not sooo eventful it was enjoyable.
It was nice to be spending time with my best sec sch pals.
The highlight of the whole three days was actually the SONGS OF THE SEA!
It was totally AWESOME!
Other than that was the fact that we got to sing our hearts out and also spending our night at the tower on the mini island across the bridge in sentosa.
It felt really good to take such a wonderful break from the normal world that we live in.
And what more with your good friends around!
haha.
alright, enuf of my boring entry.
some pictures for now.

Songs Of The Sea!

jumpshot =)

This is not all the pictures we took.
Will post more next time!
ciaos ppl =)

2007-09-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
this is my NEW and FIRST blog ever!
decided to make one to keep track of what im doing in my daily life .
HAHA!
lame i know..
for now nothing much to say.
will be back for MORE!